a short story....

A few months ago somebody asked me to write this short story… so here it goes… and by the way, I want to thank to all the people that inspire me and get me to write again. It is such a liberating exercise.

It was lunchtime; I came a bit late to the dinner hall. When I crossed the door I scanned the room to check for a free welcoming place for me and I saw this sweet Japanese woman who was doing the same course as me. I targeted the chair in her left side and went to pick some of the magnificent veggie food to later sit in her table.

I said hi and she responded nodding her head. I asked her if I could sit there and she –again- nodded with a sweet smile. I felt welcomed, although there was a funny and at the same time awkward atmosphere around the situation. I attributed it to my Latin-American vibe confronted with her Japanese vibe.

We were both enjoying our meal and those precious free minutes out of the stressful yoga course we were attending. I felt it was my chance to know more about this mysterious and graceful Japanese woman. So I start a small chat. I brought up some questions about things. She always nodded. Always.

After a while, I could hear the dialogue inside my mind: is she really understanding my English? She seems not very interested in my questions. What does that Mona Lisa smile really mean? Should I shout up and just eat? 

But I didn’t loose my faith, I wanted her to engage into some conversation. I find always interesting to meet people from different cultures. I always realize I have this idea of them being totally different to me and later I realize we are humans with more things in common, sometimes just with a different color on our passports.

After almost a half hour of this pin-pon game without challenger my repertory of questions was falling into scarcity. I sort of perceived she was getting a bit annoyed by my curiosity and insistence. But she was all the time giving me this compassionate look. I couldn’t decode the message at all. 

Finally, she laugh. Fine! I made her laugh, I felt so proud of myself. Then she turned towards me and pointed with her gracefull, long and white right index finger the sticker she was wearing over her jacket which said in capital letters:

S I L E N C E

:D 

a message to the people I love....

some notes out of the book "A New Earth" from Eckhart Tolle which appeared today to me as a magic answer to some of my day reflexions:

The remnants of pain left behind by every strong negative emotion that is not fully faced, accepted, and then let go of join together on form an energy field that lives in the very cells of your body. It consists not just of childhood pain, but also painful emotions that were added to it later in adolescence and during your adult life, much of it created by the voice of the ego. It is the emotional pain that is your unavoidable companion when a false sense of self is the basis of your life.
This energy field of old but still very-much-alive emotion that lives in almost every human being is the pain-body.

HOW THE PAIN-BODY RENEWS ITSELF?
The pain-body is a semi autonomous energy-form that lives within the most human beings, and entity made up of emotion. It has its own primitive intelligence, not unlike a cunning animal, and its intelligence is directed primarily at survival. Like all life-forms, it periodically needs to feed - to take in new energy- and the food it requires to replenish itself consists of energy that is compatible with its own, which is to say, energy that vibrates at a similar frequency. Any emotionally painful experience can be used as food by the pain-body. That's why it thrives on negative thinking as well as drama in relationships. The pain-body is an addiction to unhappiness.
It may be shocking when you realize for the first time that there is something within you that periodically seeks emotional negativity, seeks unhappiness. You need even more awareness to see it in yourself than to recognize it in another person. Once the unhappiness has taken you over, not only do you not want an end to it, but you want to make others just as miserable as you are in order to feed on their negative emotional reactions.
In most people, the pain-body has a dormant and an active stage. When it is dormant, you easily forget that you carry a heavy dark cloud or a dormant volcano inside you, depending in the energy field of your particular pain-body. How long it remains dormant varies from person to person: A few weeks is most common, but it can be a few days or months. In rare cases the pain-body can lie in hibernation for years before it gets triggered by some event.